I am having a quite rough time these days.I guess because I have my papers coming up in the next week.IR is the most disgusting subject ever. Lol I m being visibly reluctant to study it.Thanks to ALLAH this was the last semester we had to study IR.Its killing me seriously.Apart from that I have my plenty of assignments piled up which need to be submitted in a very short span. Thats why couldn't post much on my blog :(.I am burdened with lots of work nowadays but Ill get through it INSHALLAH.
I read this article (http://blogs.tribune.com.pk/story/9009/my-religion-terrifies-me/ )a few days ago. It reminded me of a conversation that I had with a friend of mine a couple of months back. I asked her if she feels to be a proud muslim Pakistani while living in Dubai.To my astonishment she replied in negative and told me the reason behind it that when she was leaving from dubai airport for her europe trip with her family some cops gathered them, after when they came to know that they are a muslim family and because of that they conducted their extra investigation.That incident pissed her off really bad and since then she has developed some negative views in her mind regarding our religion.I have seen so many people in my surrounding living internationally, who have become a victim of this stereotype that all muslims are terrorists. Some people take such happenings on their hearts and become really angry whereas others just ignore them and remain firm with their beliefs, despite of the fact that they are living in western countries.
The most saddening part of today's era is what I am observing nowadays in our own Islamic Republic Of Pakistan that youth here also is getting influenced by the western culture.There is nothing wrong in implementing their positive habbits but copying the flaws of western culture is really very shameful.Our younsters should know their boundries and must always keep a balance between world's affairs and religion.
These days I am also being a very bad girl.I don't offer my prayers constantly and I feel hell guilty about it.I read sana's blog recently and honestly I am going through the same situation through which she went.Everytime I hear moazzan reciting AZAAN to call for prayer , shaitan dominates my thoughts and I start making excuses and put off the task of praying for the next day, which obviously never comes.
Few tears back I have been through the most touhghest time I had never thought I would face in my life.But while facing my hardships I realized that nobody except ALLAH was with me and I have gotten through almost everything so far ALHAMDULILLAH.The point is that I had become so spititual in those days,but I have no idea why I have become so distracted from my religion now.I used to recite Quran almost daily, but now I haven't seen it since months.
May be thats the reason why nowadays I am unable to concentrate upon my studies..may be thats why life doesn't seem easy anymore..may be thats why I am not feeling peace in my mind and heart any longer.
Its Better To Be Late Than Never! ~
I hope my ALLAH pardons me for raveling into unnecessary worldly thoughts and wasting my time in thinking about them, also giving them preference over my salahs and reciting the Quran.I have decided to be punctual in offering my namaaz and I wish I and every other Muslim out there who like me has also become irregular in offering his prayers becomes dedicated in praying again the rest of his/her life. Ameen.